Perspective from the Artist
My focus as an artist has been exploring concepts about mental states and emotion, and the very human ability to disconnect from these thoughts and feelings whether intentional, or otherwise. My ideas stem from my relationships with others and my struggles with mental illness. Being very introverted and emotionally inward, making art and writing has been a way for me to project to an audience my thoughts and feelings. Having dealt with social anxiety and disordered eating habits, partnered with bad body image and perfectionist tendencies, art has been my communication and coping tool in the midst of a very loud, very socially confusing world. My pieces are vulnerable in a way I choose not to be, to both nature and the influence of others. They cannot speak up for themselves, lie, or run away from scrutiny, and in turn are able to give me a sense of what it's like to exist without the invisible boundary of what types of behavior are socially acceptable.
Materials used in most of my work consist of a variety found objects paired with yarn and nails for overlying structure, highly stylized brush strokes with lots of repeating pattern, and an excess of texture. I prefer to work on window glass rather than canvas when painting, because the history already embedded within old window frames gives my ideas an inherited background I can use to amplify what I am trying to convey. I enjoy the challenge of painting on a transparent material, and the ability this material has to blend colors in an unusual way, depending on the lighting used in displaying the painting. When it comes to creating sculptures with found objects, I use many of my own belongings in my work, such as kitschy knick knacks and small mementos of moments I've collected from myself, friends, and family members over time. Using personal items helps connect my thoughts directly to the artwork. I have a history of what those objects meant to me before they became art elements, and I apply these separate meanings to the overall statement I am trying to make with a specific piece. Essentially emotional dumping grounds, my sculptures and paintings evolve to represent memories I can’t let go of and people I can’t seem to forget about.
I prefer to install my sculptures in natural settings, public places, and forgotten and abandoned homes and buildings, and I record my work's stay in these settings through photography and writing. This way of displaying my work captures how the existence of our thoughts and our physical selves is only temporary in this world, and that fact is both undeniably fascinating and terrifying.